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Sep. 27th, 2005 @ 02:19 pm (no subject)
"Can God create a boulder so large that He, Himself, cannot lift it?"
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Sep. 26th, 2005 @ 08:31 pm (no subject)
Thanksgiving dinner's sad and thankless
Chistmas dinner's dark and blue
When you stop and try to see it
From the turkey's point of view.

Sunday dinner isn't sunny
Easter feasts are just bad luck
When you see it from the viewpoint
Of a chicken or a duck.

Oh how I once loved tuna salad
Pork and lobsters, lamb chops too
Till I stopped and looked at dinner
From the dinner's point of view.
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Feb. 16th, 2005 @ 12:51 pm (no subject)
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Feb. 16th, 2005 @ 09:30 am (no subject)
"The Joy in Forgetting / The Joy in Acceptance"

There is a cat in the window of the house of my lover. Well she sleeps
there alone now or perhaps with another but I try not to think about
that. I try not to think at all. I get cocaine from this girl I met
and my brother buys me alcohol. And I stay up all night walking
through these houses I have grown to hate and my parents ask if I'm all
right I say "I've just been staying up too late." I need to sleep. I
need to do something to get this awful weight up off my chest and keep
her pretty ghost from chasing me...You say there are spaces open and
wide. You say there are days longer than nights. And I could be happy
if only I'd try...but I don't try. I don't try. And you speak of a
fever that burns you inside. As you explain to your mother how you
have wanted to die. So she kisses your fingers and says "My Darling
but why? When there is so much more. There is so much more. Do you
know there are spaces open and wide. Believe me, there are days longer
than nights. And you will be happy the minute you try. So won't you
try? Won't you try?
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Jan. 12th, 2005 @ 05:19 pm (no subject)
You’re looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
You just keep going to the bathroom always say you’ll be right back
Well it takes one to know one, kid, I think you’ve got it bad
But what’s so easy in the evening, by the morning is such a drag.

I’ve got a flask inside my pocket we can share it on the train
If you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normally in the evening, by the morning seems insane.

And I’m not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
The reasons have run away but the feeling never did
It’s not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight, by the morning never is
What’s so simple in the moonlight, by the morning is so complicated.
What’s so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight
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Oct. 22nd, 2004 @ 04:46 pm (no subject)
1147.8 calories per day is your Basal Caloric Rate
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Oct. 2nd, 2004 @ 02:06 pm (no subject)
camp was..interesting.

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Jun. 7th, 2004 @ 03:03 pm (no subject)
Your Existing Situation
Working to improve her image in the eyes of others so as to obtain their compliance and agreement with her needs and wishes.

Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.
Unhappy at the resistance she feels whenever she tries to assert herself. Indignant and resentful because of these setbacks, but gives way apathetically and makes whatever adjustments are necessary so that she can have peace and quiet.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.

Your Desired Objective
Desires a tranquil, peaceful state of harmony offering quiet contentment and a sense of belonging.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting her from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation
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Jun. 1st, 2004 @ 08:21 am (no subject)
oh, and my baby kitty is PREGNANT.

that slut.

anyone want a kitten in a couple of months?
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May. 16th, 2004 @ 11:30 am (no subject)
so today ive eaten toast.
i think
i think too much.
i just want to become nothing, is that too fucking much to ask?

aldous huxley took LSD.
thats a shocker.
anyway, have fun kiddies.

nothing for the rest of the day.
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